Today is unofficially the first day of school for both my kids – and the first time I’ll ever have two kids in school. Weird. I say “unofficially” because Essley technically starts tomorrow (she goes to preschool 4 days a week), and Emmett technically starts Thursday (he goes 2 days a week). But today is their “meet the teachers” day where parents accompany them. So while I won’t be posting the predictable “first day” photos to my Instagram until later this week (the image above is actually from last year), I’m counting today as a first day.
I remember on Essley’s first day in the class Emmett is starting this week and how I couldn’t sleep the night before. I was so excited for this milestone, and also really nervous. Essley, of course, barely looked me in the eye before darting into the classroom. Emmett is my shy one though, and he isn’t fond of strangers, so I’m wondering if I’ll be the same way tomorrow night as I was with Essley (equal parts nervous and excited), before his first official day. In the grand scheme of things, it’s such a silly thing to be a cause for anxiety. But hey, parents are ridiculous about this stuff. Myself included.
As I mentioned above, this will also be the first time ever that both kids will be gone at the same time (even if just for a few hours a week), aside from when they’re at at their grandmother’s. (My mom watches the kids when I work.) It’s awesome and it’s also a little sad, because that whole cliche about time passing quickly with kids is the truth, man. I already see so much independence in Essley. It’s wonderful and scary at the same time. Bittersweet. But I’m so happy to be on this journey.
Before I go, I just have to say that I just realized this is my third personal post in a row. (By “personal,” I mean ramblings about things going on in my life vs. the general lifestyle/parenting/food/how to posts you normally read here.) It’s funny because journal-like posts used to be the norm for blogging. These days things are much different of course, but I’m always reminding myself how important it is for this space to be authentic (and not just an online magazine). It’s been a long time since there has been this many in a week’s period. I’m counting on you guys to tell me if it’s too much.