Guys, I don’t even know what to say that hasn’t already been said all over the internet and among friends. This is all absolutely surreal. Less than a week ago my plans for today were to be on a flight to Iceland with my husband for a week with the band he works for, while my kids stayed with their grandmothers and continued with school and activities. Today I sit in my home office struggling to finish the small amount of work I have while my kids run and yell downstairs and my husband, who flew back home to Chicago from California last Friday after their touring was indefinitely canceled, attempts to homeschool them. (Their schools are closed until April 6th, but we all know that it will likely be for the rest of the year.) I continue to get emails from agencies and brands telling me that campaigns I am working on or have completed but were not yet live are being postponed or canceled. It is a very uncertain time for my family – and for everyone – financially, mentally, and emotionally. This shit is scary.
I am trying very hard to focus on the positive. First of all, we are healthy. Our parents, who are in their 70s and most of whom have underlying health conditions, do not have the virus. That is ultimately all that matters. We also have time together that we never had before. My husband is usually gone half the year and when he is here to help with the kids, I am working excessively to squeeze my jobs in during his time at home. So this precious time together is a gift. My daughter’s dance studio, which is her second home, is live streaming her classes and also my yoga classes, so we’re able to continue doing those things we love. My kids’ teachers are beyond amazing and are checking in throughout the day, everyday, to answer countless questions as we navigate this new normal of schooling. I am also thinking about bigger picture stuff, like how humans staying in their homes all over the world will have a positive impact on our earth.
For the first time since I started Bubby and Bean 10 years ago, I am unsure what the future will hold. Sponsored campaigns where I share products, services, and brands I love, are how I am able to sustain the blog and my social media channels. In other words, in order for me to spend the time that I do creating content here and most of all, on Instagram, I need to get paid so I can support my family. I am hoping that even though many brands are choosing to postpone campaigns for now (which is 100% understandable), that eventually things will pick back up. For right now, I likely won’t be posting much here on the blog, if at all. I am truly sorry for this. I will still be posting often to my Instagram Stories and hopefully on my Instagram feed as well.
In the meantime, take care of yourselves and each other. If you’re working from home and/or homeschooling, just do your best. Try to enjoy your time together. Look around you. Breath. Try new things. Or don’t, and just relax. Find the good in this unexpected gift of time with your families, or time to yourself. And if you need to talk, I’m here.